Midwinter Graces

30 secs each of beauty.
excited.

episode 36454.
first everything, then compounded by thing.
discovered the limits to my tolerance level.
no benefit of doubt. no compassionate understanding. no nothing.
because im going to stop trying to understand, to reason.
im done.

emotions were like wild horses, reason could never entirely master them. - brida

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

so it is.
liking.

liking.
transport me to the burtonised and deppified.

doin this activity with the lil ones today; we look for hidden objects in pictures - often with little difficulty. but on a few occasions, a particular object cannot be found and so they start buggin me and complainin that its too difficult and start beliving that its not in the picture. few refused to abandon hope.

had they tilt the picture and looked at it at a different angle, they would have seen it. thinking; in the grand scheme of life, there are things we search for that we think we do not have, but if we spin things around and look through another perspective, there it is.

momo: im allergic to chinese.
my sorta kid;)

I AM GOING BACK TO FAVORITE PLACE TOMORROW.

for a day but, still.

Only love, only love can leave such a mark

But only love, only love can heal such a scar

Justified till we die, you and I will magnify

The Magnificent

jumpout of the day; one of my favourites off u2 - nolineonthehorizon

although it may not be, i interpret this as a direct reference to God. whose love but His can leave such a mark or heal such a scar? in my own little way, perhaps insignificant, i want to magnify the Magnificent. ;D

religions, traditions, customs - are all secondary to the love, the perfect love that was undeserved, unmerited but was so freely and abundantly given to us. the love that never ever fails when all else fails. im always lost and found, i am loved.

i painted my nails! after the long hiatus from nail painting, im rediscovering the joy of seeing colored nails against the black lacquered surface of my keyboard. its mint greeeeen, im liking!

wld it be possible one day to create a new alphabet? what shape would it take, what would it sound like, what useless new words can be invented? its funny trying to create your own alphabet. ok, yes, i was very bored in class today.

it was so cold in the morning i was looking forward to cuddling the masses of stangers in the mrt ;( this is just sad.

turning 21 should be a daily event if it promises so much FUN.

sweet&sour soup got me a helium balloon fondly referred to as 大黄奶. its eerily bobbing around while smiling to itself as it settles in its place of gradual deflation next to my window. hahahalovesit!

the children at joycenter made me the first card that i just wanna hug to sleep everynight from now. its so very precious, every single thought, word and drawing. went back that day and had multiple versions of the bdae song sung - from french to vietnamese ;D is the happy.

precelebration was an awesome night out at nightsafari in its full halloween g(l)ory. su veron & nina (haha u take! 21 but still loving juvenile jokes) went snapping ghouls, ghosts, and unidentified hideous people. its disappointing to be perpetually ready to be shocked but end up missing the scare because im too slow to catch up on ANYTHING. im always looking at the wrong places or though my lens which is silly because everyone else knows my camera is very chui - i should not have even tried. ;(
then we sat by the smelly singapore drain and drank. milk. tea. ;)
LOVEs the beautiful card, the jacket i want, and the cake i love. you people are _________! (only positive adjectives)

decided on a picnic at hort park. my mum heard me on the phone and told me its a very good idea to have 'hotpot'. she was extremely against the idea of a picnic because apparently im feeding my friends junk food. which, most unfortunately seems to be TRUE. i never had the chance to grocery shop indiscretionally because coming from a small family unit of 3, we have to strategically choose products and plan eating habits to prevent wastage. explains why it is so difficult to gauge the amount of food needed for a picnic of 12. and green cups in hort park is just very fitting WHAT! almost all my favourite people came! IMHAPPY.soveryhappy. lek even made us his signature potato salad which is like the bomb cos finally something not classified as junk food. and at the end of the day i have 3 cameras and one AWESOME scrapbook.

spent the sunday just eating good food, cos this is what u do with family. favourite restaurant, crabscrabsmorecrabs. my mum arranged and decorated all our family pictures; once the only child in the entire family, i monopolized all camera shots. MEMEMEMEmoreME. she spent days on it;) while my dad gave me the most practical gift of all. ;) cant wait for next week when my granny will be back from msia and all kids would have finished their exams;D

ive no idea what ive done to have gained or even deserved all you people who made the effort to put happy in front of birthday for me, im very very extraordinarily blessed. if all of you were websites, ill have u know i would favourite everyone of u.

ok creepy, 大黄奶 just moved place.

"why don't people's hearts tell them to continue to follow their dreams?"
"because that's what makes a heart suffer most and hearts don't like to suffer."

the alchemist.

can i quote the whole book?

it was concert rehearsal back at favourite place today ;)
little pple made my day, my heart, sososo very happy. there are stray moments of pure happiness i want to ink into my heart. the small tiny indivdual pictures that make a mosiac. every conversations as silly, as insignificant, as seemingly pointless, i want to remember.

beyond all worldly knowledge i should learn, i desire wisdom only God can bestow, and to be led into peace. little people do become really difficult sometimes.