stagnant -
a perfectly apt word describing the driving force fuelling ideas for my essay
it started from nowhere and looks like its getting nowhere
such abstract ideas are a pain, its like beating ard a bush when there is no bush
they are like.. conceptually abstract definitions which defy definitions (seewhatimean)
annoying.
im stuck here, stagnant, pondering over the purpose of this paper and more so, how im going to go about squeezing out more words from my already drained grey matter.

I can't live forever, I can't always be

One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea

The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross

And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world

Stay Alive

exactly.