mental snapshots

2012-01-19T22:14:00.001+08:00

2012-01-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

fwah.
i thought. i seriously thought there was something fleeing from the side of my eyes.
TWICE.

it must be fatigue.
i am hardly awake at any one time; my attempts at sleep have been a daily dismal failure. i sleep and wake having thoughts and fears haunting my mind. all these unnecessities.

scatterfugginbrain. boyohboy, the last thing i want to be.
i prefer it whole and useful. i rehearsed and repeated and still; i forget. i miss. i slip. i fail. i stumble. and tears. those shameful tears. burns the skin and scars the face.

okay, hope reading puts me in a sleepier mood.

2012-01-17T22:36:00.003+08:00

loving my hoots.

hoots on my ears, fingers, and neck. all my little hoots, from people i adore to the very core of my bones. i hoot you!
*hoots are my growing collection of owls - of which i contribute very little to.

hello, i occasionally drop by to sprout some nonsense in this neglected space. i am nt even going to fix the blog header.. yet. been having a tight calendar in the first month of 2012. earlier bedtimes are needed, effectively killing the time i spend with toshiba.

if i call my iphone and an iphone, ill give my toshiba the same respect lol
nonsense.
i think i need to sleep now.

2011-12-28T21:58:00.001+08:00

cause its a bittersweet symphony, this life.

2011-12-26T01:31:00.002+08:00

6 days trip to bkk is cure for my insomnia; we head back to the hotel everynight woozy. hence, the sore throat and chronic fatigue i am nursing willingly. the period of stay is insufficient, contary to widespread misconception. it is all about relativity. not when you have the most awesome combo of JBs and a never-say-die spirit in conquering all of the city.

everyday is a high for me.
from the start right till the very end, so much so, it feels like a 6 days dream. a wild concoction of blurry drunken nights, adrenaline-pumping tuktuk rides (I LOVE TUKTUKS AND FEARLESS DRIVERS) and non-stop celebrations with thai food galore. it was a blessed trip with no hiccups. amidst all the trouble that seems to plague thailand these days, the weather was beautiful, breezy and sunny, for us.

had the lovliest eve of eve, eve and christmas itself.
gift exchange in the office; double joy when i know that someone appreciates the gift i got for them. and i received the best xmas gift of all from love. pricetag aside, he REMEMBERED this was something i wanted. im so. very. moved. i am feeling alot of christmas love this year. and as usual, xmas ended off with the family dinner which i missed last year. so 2011 is ending off really well and i am really happy. really.

2011-12-17T10:42:00.003+08:00

our holi-till-end-of-2011 is fi. na. lly. here.
4 months of anticipation, uncertainties, and hiccups. and yay, today is it:)

the year has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs.
more ups then downs. be it ups or downs, i am grateful you you you and you. at different times, in different capacities and in different ways. all of you make life easier; the good better, the bad manageable.

i am going on a trip with my utmost favourite people in the whole wide world.
i am going on a trip with you. love you!

2011-11-28T21:35:00.003+08:00

Where do we go nobody knows?
Don't even say you're on your way down, when
God gave you style and gave you grace
And put a smile upon your face
ok? :)

2011-11-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

i will be very happy sitting there.

WHERE IS THIS!?

2011-11-16T21:14:00.005+08:00

having a perpetual dull and sometimes sharp (at random) ache right smack in the middle of your stomach is :\ at the same time rashes breaking out on my already scarred feet is doubly :\ feeling quite miserable these couple of days. as much as i wld love to whine to anyone who is interested, i remember noone is really interested. so here i come blogging. i hope my misery interests you for a bit.

unless its boyfriend who bears the incessant complaints of my itch and pain. the receiving end of disgusting pictures of my feet. and also entertain my grouses abt public transport/himself/ people/food/more insignificant matters. tough job, poor him.

going to hug my caterpillar, stroke its lovely caterpillar ears and watch an episode of happy sitcom reserved for a day like this.

2011-11-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

it has been a while, talking to myself like this.
i drafted an entry yesterday which started out this way and turned out unintentionally a depressing read. logical me took over and kept it as a draft. thankfully, for as per all all such episodes, my unhappiness disappates quickly;)

received a call from someone dear, to tell her something happy.
something happy is a lovely sunday post-rainy night, and i am huddled at home with my family. and also, a call from someone dear. so today, in essence, is a happy day.

staying motivated for driving lessons is really tough. a few minutes of motivational talk prior to the lessons works for a while and then fades in a jiffy. again, lack of interest is the crux here. gahhh.

the mozziebumps on my feet are KILLING me with itch. death by scratching. the beautiful view of the reservoir is not worth that many itchy bumps. susu, a fellow victim, suggests perhaps scalding the skin with hot water stops the itch. death by burns. no thank you.

another 5 days to go again.

2011-10-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

i never really liked ':)'ing close friends/boyfriend or receiving them.
something abt it seems too polite, nearly superficial or patronising even if i know it really isnt. i shall stop smiley-facing from now! except for cases when i need to be polite, superficial or patronising. maybe also when i am actually really pissed but i still want to play nice and hope you are not too dense to realise that.

i much prefer XD :/ :0 -.- T.T
we shall nt be polite and too nice to each other, overly-dramatic emoticons is the way to go!

2011-10-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

2011-10-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

A Quiet Person.

2011-10-11T23:21:00.004+08:00

the essence to every successful idol drama not only lies in the pretty faces. it is to have a male protagonist who appears unlikely to offer the female protagonist tiniest bit of affection or care due to some childhood sob story (i.e lack of a mother's love). and then to eventually fall for the female protagonist who will also undoubtedly always secretly be in love with his angst and bitterness. with the latter being completely unsuspecting and dense, she will soon be overwhelmed with his ass-turns-perfectboyfriend gestures. from thoughtful sweet gestures to great self-sacrifies, you name it, the scriptwriters got it. in addition, while the female protagonist is dealing with her one-sided crush (as it appears), there must be a perfect gentleman by her side to help her appear less pathetic. he, who is so consumed with admiration for her such that he will eventually come to terms with losing her and giving her his blessings because the ass is actually a really nice guy at the end.

lol

2011-09-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

long time no rot, no time no blog.

grumpy monday but i decide to not be a grouch today ;)

youtubing some songs dear girl never fails to sing @ k. lol-ing as it appears that i had always been singing her remix. she is my superstar!

it gets slightly tiresome to have to explain yourself; habits, thoughts, beliefs. sure, there is no harm in answering and makes for potentially good conversation. it is only irritating when in response upon explanation, u get an 'incredulous look'. please, avoid doing that regardless how incredulous you are. on the other hand, this helps me very much appreciate the handful of loves who simply just 'know'.

yesternight, i woke a couple of times, as per almost all unfortunate nights. so instead of being my usual grumpy self, at 6am, i committed to memory the blissful moment i dive right back into my quilt and pillows, cuddle my caterpillar, and sink into sleep.

sleepy, but i try to wait for my goodnight msg ;)

2011-09-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

a nice day at work when things get done and proposal gets accepted.
a nice home cooked dinner my mother made for my dad and i.
a nice whatsapp conversation with friends on nothing and everything.
a nice evening with the boyfriend watching telly, slurping magnums.
and this is all i should ever want; a nice day.

2011-08-30T13:06:00.002+08:00

Beautiful day outside, but I don't care
Everything I need I got right here
Why should I go out? Why should I even move?
Just another lazy day afternoon.

2011-08-28T23:26:00.003+08:00

contorting facial muscles to a degree beyond human recognition is (in very desperate attempts to look cute) IS NOT CUTE AT ALL. how is it not apparent to said person when such pictures are almost offensive to my eyes? deleting said person off newsfeed.

i wonder if i take things too seriously when i feel abt things like that.
like a negative and uptight person. whom i will also dislike.
relaxrelax

i am always wary of sharing too much and divulging too much information pertaining to personal life/thoughts/issues/emotions on an online platform. once online/in print, words are difficult to withdraw. usually words that emerge from a single episode of unhappiness, anger or spite are regrets that sting in the wake of the episode.

in contrast, words of joy and wisdom should be shared selflessly:)

get fat sundays; my family loves making, feeding, sharing and eating food.
tues being a PH makes monday alot less dreadful.

2011-08-27T00:17:00.002+08:00

ive been supressing alot of my grouchiness this week.
i am beginning to suspect that that is the cause of my interupted sleep this week. waking up at random hours throughout the night is not funny. so is the difficulty getting back to sleep and then getting plagued by nonsensical dreams till the alarm finally rings.

the reason why my grouchiness is nt manifested in my actions or speech is by pure logical reasoning that nothing justifies or warrants this from me.

but i AM grouchy. i WANT to whine. and i dont wish to be nice. :(

2011-08-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

I HAVE A PERSISTENT UNEXPLAINABLE CRAVING FOR STEAMBOAT.
with everyone.
but i can do with some tomato based pasta too.
hungrrry 24/7. 7th month. hahaha

2011-08-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

Knives and firearms leave traces of blood.
Bombs shake whole buildings and streets.
Poisons can always be detected.

But a destructive word can provoke Evil without leaving behind it a single clue.
Check to see if you yourself are using this weapon.
Check to see if someone is using this weapon on you
And put a stop to both. - Paulo Coelho

to me, leaving my phone in the car is akin to leaving my boyfriend and friends in it. the growing dependency is disturbing.

pockypockypockypocky sticks. likes!

happygoodays. more happygoodays to come.
in amazingthailand. voila!

2011-08-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

ssssslurrrps

2011-08-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

Love is an untamed force. When we try to control it, it destroys us. When we try to imprison it, it enslaves us. When we try to understand it, it leaves us feeling lost and confused - Paulo Coelho

so much love, so much cake!

2011-08-06T12:38:00.004+08:00

2011-08-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

when someone becomes the sole deciding factor on making/breaking the day, you know you are hopeless. the loss of control is terrifying really.

hahaha. hai.

2011-07-30T16:18:00.001+08:00

I'm down to a whisper
In a daydream on a hill
Shut down to a whisper
Can you hear me still

2011-07-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

on fb, 2 friends who went from being 'in a relationship' to 'single' at the exact same time. (from their respective partners, not each other lol) weird. and they dont know each other. same timing! its like an ominous sign or something. or maybe today is just a bad day.

i think it is, i woke up feelin it in my bones.

2011-07-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

this is the EXACT image i have in my head when i read enid blyton. i conjure up images of suburban houses, crisp autumn leaves, warm golden sunshine, dandelions, rose bushes, fine china, wicker basket, flora patches.. i dream of being there one day. one fine day.

cant stop tumblring.

2011-07-27T22:08:00.002+08:00

i was down to 2 LEFT and 1 RIGHT contact lenses. i asked myself but i dont know why either. so, anyway i opened up a pair yesterday so i am left with only 1 LEFT. (lol, punny) an unsolvable situation right?

wrong!

as my (good/bad) luck would have it, i dropped BOTH of my contact lenses today and for some weird perhaps divine reason, i only managed to recover the RIGHT. 0: and thus, this concludes my bewildering mini-episode of life solving its own problems.

happy!

i silently cheer for the bus driver in my head when he finally moved out of the jam during peak hours. it is really frustrating to inch forward... inch by inch. i might as well walk.

2011-07-25T21:43:00.004+08:00

cupcakes; i cannot stop thinking about them.

2011-07-22T11:15:00.003+08:00

THUNDER!!
can give an old person a heart attack.

2011-07-22T11:12:00.000+08:00

meh. ugly little thing.

2011-07-22T11:07:00.002+08:00

i am abusing blogger. degrading it to a mircro blogging site by making no comprehensive well thought out entries except extracting random thoughts clogging up the mind.

2011-07-22T11:04:00.002+08:00

waiting. assuming. thinking. hoping.
not my favourite sport, but doing too much of it! dislike.

2011-07-22T11:00:00.001+08:00

freak rain and freak winds are my favourite occurences in punggol!

2011-07-22T10:54:00.002+08:00

we should all be asexual amoebas and reproduce via binary fission.
ah-huh.

2011-07-22T03:21:00.002+08:00

if this keeps up, ill one day go blind.
all i really want, seems so little to me yet unattainable.

2011-07-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

noone really needs 'sorry-s'.

2011-07-19T16:30:00.004+08:00

to always tell the truth; to always know the truth; to always want the truth
unnecessarily a good thing?

sigh.

2011-07-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

experienced one of the most excruciating pains in my life. i must have been lucky for all 23 years of my life to have never experienced such moments when i am rendered semi-functional; so consumed by the pain i think i may have had dramatically made some grunting noises and rolled around willing pain to be rolled off.

i am now properly scared and will make eating breakfast a priority and keeping in mind chilled red bean soup is no good for an empty tummy.

2011-07-15T15:37:00.003+08:00

AN OPEN HEART IS A HAPPY HEART
tonnes lighter, figuratively speaking. whoopeedoo, i love love love love my beautiful friends. its an extraordinary thing to have people who are drastically different from each other working things out. if we practised polygamy, this is a decade long relationship we have had and i am looking at decades more of matrimonal bliss.

2011-07-14T01:36:00.002+08:00

watching modern family's epi on christmas; i cannot wait for christmas to come again.

2011-07-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

running out of patience, i am quitting thevampirediaries for the second time. the story goes round and round in circles and i find NOTHING attractive about brooding vampires and their permanently worried teenage girlfriends. the theme of nobility and self-sacrifice in the name of vampire food/love relationship is done to death. no thankyou, no more. i would have at least stuck it out for ian somerhalder, whom unfortunately didnt have enough screentime in the series to substain my interest.

dinner dates, ohyay.

2011-07-13T00:02:00.000+08:00

2011-07-12T22:27:00.002+08:00

DONTHAVETOKNOWWHATIDONOTNEEDTOKNOW.

roar.

2011-07-12T21:26:00.002+08:00

my hair is now an intoxicating mix of chemicals,a pleasure to smell. now a shade darker than before and thereby defeating the purpose of dying platinum beige. nonetheless, byee ugly black roots.

dreary day; finished a depressing book with an epilogue titled "a sad reunion"

happyunhappyhappyunhappyhappyunhappyhappyhappy

2011-07-11T00:09:00.000+08:00

2011-07-10T16:48:00.003+08:00

轉朱閣　低綺戶　照無眠
不應有恨　何事長向別時圓　
人有悲歡離合　月有陰晴圓缺
此事古難全　但願人長久　千里共嬋娟

found the song while scouting for songs to be sung. fond memories of it being played during my chinese lesson as background music after explanation of the lyrics which is (i THINK) a poem originally written by a chinese poet su dong po. i regret to say i had nt been paying attention in class.

2011-07-07T02:14:00.003+08:00

while stuffed to brim with food (i had pancakes today! and there is still somemore food clogging up my gullet when i burp), i find myself browsing through these pages, unable to stop and addicted to hoping that one day humankind will discover a way that enables people to eat whatever the hell they want and not worry about calories, obesity and diabetes. that is as of now, my only dream. gotta sleep now, slurps.

2011-06-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

realising there is only one episode left when i had mistakenly thought i have an entire season of drop dead diva to ration on.

0.o

my butt and thighs are sore from what i hope to be vigorous pingponging, although to the best of my memory, theres more chasing after ping pong balls than working the bat.

2011-06-28T01:42:00.001+08:00

Warriors of light always keep a certain gleam in their eyes.

They are of this world, they are part of the lives of other people and they set out on their journey with no saddlebags and no sandals.

They are often cowardly.
They do not always make the right decisions.

They suffer over the most trivial things, they have mean thoughts and sometimes believe they are incapable of growing.

They frequently deem themselves unworthy of any blessing or miracle.

They are not always quite sure what they are doing here.

They spend many sleepless nights, believing that their lives have no meaning.

That is why they are warriors of light.
Because they make mistakes.
Because they ask themselves questions.

Because they are looking for a reason – and are sure to find it.

Paulo Coelho

2011-06-26T15:13:00.002+08:00

diarrhoea.
the only thing likable about it is the aftermath when you kid yourself you are thus skinnier than a diarrhoea ago. lol :'(

2011-06-26T02:26:00.003+08:00

there is a mozzies' epidemic.
my legs are unbearably horrfyingly terribly disfigured and ITCHY. can i peel off this layer of bumpy broken skin and start all over again? ill be good and wear only long pants this time round. i am no food for mozzies. D:

so frustrated but saturday itself is a saving grace.
happy from the inside out. loves!

2011-06-24T11:05:00.001+08:00

2011-06-22T12:44:00.004+08:00

5, 4, 3, 2, 1.
craving for a healthy sinful dosage of comfort food.

2011-06-21T15:29:00.006+08:00

2011-06-21T03:07:00.003+08:00

if i die tomorrow from what appears to be perhaps a mystery, im here to inform that continual stinging pain on my left middle finger may be a symptom of the causation. i experience a sharp pain followed by a strange numbing sensation when i apply pressure. there is also no obvious broken skin. i wonder what is wrong with my left middle finger :(

2011-06-18T01:47:00.002+08:00

a kalaidescope of the man!

2011-06-17T00:27:00.001+08:00

Dalai Lama's pizza joke.

lol

2011-06-16T17:32:00.006+08:00

"hello friends, i know it may not mean much but i love you all. you have a beautiful family. and i pray that one person's judgemental intolerance does not in any way put a dam on ur hearts or mine. we will remember not the words of enemies but the silence of our friends" - donavan

silence is one of the failures of the pple today. speak up!

2011-06-13T01:52:00.000+08:00

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment

2011-06-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

who is with meeeee?~

2011-06-11T14:40:00.003+08:00

A wise old owl lived in an oak

The more he saw and the less he spoke

The less he spoke and the more he heard

Why can't we all be like that wise old bird?

2011-06-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

losing a sneeze is a very big disappointment,
insects' bites on the face and feet, a big inconvinience.
an unhappy tummy makes everything worse,
pms? amplifies everything above.

2011-06-09T23:36:00.004+08:00

if humanly possible.

2011-06-09T23:11:00.006+08:00

someday, i want to ride in a hot air balloon!

2011-06-09T18:28:00.002+08:00

a friend asked, "什么是人生目标？好好活在当下算不算？"

2011-06-09T13:59:00.003+08:00

its a growing bubble, dont burst!
openheart! ^^
joyjoyjoy.

my driving lessons starts next week, vrrrom!

2011-06-02T01:06:00.001+08:00

joy is a happy contagious disease everyone should catch.

2011-06-02T00:44:00.003+08:00

do you get aches in your head that feels like a needle piercing the middle of your brain at random unexpected timings? it isnt very nice.

and i must share this!! if you are on the road at night (being not the one driving) and you are lucky enough to have myopia, take off ur glasses/lenses. lights from cars and traffic will appear to be miniature fireworks that blossoms into sparkles as you dive right into them. like a 3d experience without the tacky shades. entertains for abt a minute.

2011-05-25T00:46:00.002+08:00

contantly feeling drained cannot possibly be a good sign especially when im in no way being productive :/ and my stomach is rebelling from excessive eating or irregular meals? for days, it has been acting all weird.

stuck some owls on in a miserable attempt to cover up the cracks on my wall. liking the pseudo rustic/industrial feel that resulted. wouldnt mind chipped walls and untiled floors. hee!

2011-05-23T22:45:00.007+08:00

i am entertaining happyhungrythoughts of breadpudding, cinnamonapplemuffin, blueberrycheesecake, mintchocfrapp; but alas.. goodthings are always bad for you.

i lathered my hair with showercream. took a few moments to hit me why the smell and texture is all wrong. :0 mouth was agaped with shock.

my ftt booklet hasnt been properly flipped thru and doggyeared yet. :0 :0 :0 should panic now.

2011-05-22T11:52:00.004+08:00

2011-05-22T11:38:00.003+08:00

double eyelids.
where art thou? -.- sigh.
i talk to myself and my double eyelids. haha ha ha.

i want my teledrama to come on NOW. shld have woken up later if i can help it.

2011-05-22T01:16:00.002+08:00

times like this, my mind will go into overwork and murder any happy thought i had managed to conjure. times like this, i dont want to be alone. times like this, no comedies can save my head from the spiral down. times like this, i wonder, i wander.

2011-05-21T18:10:00.005+08:00

feeling shitty.

2011-05-21T16:56:00.003+08:00

keeerrr-raaaay-zeeee hair. its a love/hate thing noone understands.

reading too much depressing words dont help. i need company *needyneedy. what are crickets doing wheezing at this time of the day? the grass in singapore is very unwelcoming, i miss the sparse soft grounds babies tumble in and dogs... ok lets not go there. the sun is bright and the air is cool, the grass is green and the skies are blue. le sigh.

2011-05-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

walked right into cobwebs, those threads are sturdy :0
its a good day, its a good night, its a good life, im feeling good.

sailing through & moving on!
my heart contains MANYMANY LOVES for my manymany loves. yippedeedo.

2011-05-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

2011-05-11T12:33:00.002+08:00

nothing i have watched can compare to this. cannot wait to watch again!

2011-05-10T22:58:00.001+08:00

sleepy? :D

2011-05-09T00:00:00.005+08:00

V says: yeah but i think htc nicer to use leh
minimo says: hahaa yea i dunno why. its like choosing political parties hor. u dunno the full implications of choosin one LOL

still very impressed with myself for this revelation. hehehe.

2011-05-04T00:14:00.001+08:00

empty vessels make the most noise.

2011-05-04T00:04:00.005+08:00

"No my friends, the real target of our anger is the PAP government," she (Nicole Seah) said, to a thunderous round of applause.

anger. really?? inciting anger is the best opposition can do?

and the ATTROCITY of her apologizing for the comments made by MM Lee. the quality of our opposition parties has sunk even lower. perhaps what MM Lee has said is nt the most politically correct statement, but it certainly has some truth to it and has nothing to apologize for.

2011-05-02T23:01:00.003+08:00

remember the story of the chopsticks that delivered the message 'united we stand and divided we fall'? for a reason self-explanatory, this has been lingering in my thoughts for these few weeks.

its worrying, personally for me, whose foremost concern is the stability of our little island. any (drastic) change in the parliament is bound to create waves that is possibly unpredicted and unprecendented. furthermore, what i believe is challenging our stability is a bunch of political ideas that has its foundations in anti-pap sentiments.

not a political avid fan, but the massive slew of reports via mass media has garnered me a small but hopfully nontheless useful insight of what is going on that has enabled me to come to my own conclusion and decision in whose box im putting a cross in.

to me, there must be something wrong if a political party is unable to give a clear constuctive plan and the implications on how might they improve what they considered unsatisfactory at present. unpopular policies will always exist simply because noone cannot please everyone at the same time. if u can, something is wrong, over promising and not delivering may be the result. sure u can lambast someone over a mistake. ONLY if you can tell me a better alternative and what will be sacrified to deliver that result.

even if you do. words are not cheap, they are FREE. i am not compromising on my 5 years of stability for your test-drive. pillion riders, i hear, are always the first to die. pap's hard-fisted tactics against the opp does make them appear to be bullies, and they may play a little dirty. but its politics, you dont get anywhere playing nice. in any games, given a chance, who would not crush any potential opponents? if i am the best at this game, i would own this game.

a proven track-record (a record-breaking record) has proven that we have a solid leadership and sound policies in place that has enable us, a land of no resources to have prospered and come thus far. the majority of the singaporeans have access to world-class health care, roofs over our heads, good education system for all and whatever some pple are taking for granted. sure, they come at a price, but noone owes u a living, and if u are discontented in a 4 room flat, go pray you strike toto, govt even gives u hope, u see? obviously as compared to countries with vast resources and land, our quality of life is significantly reduced and come at a higher price. its not by choice which country we are born into. if not i might choose japan and live happily altho in constant fear of earthquakes.

dun vote out of sympathy or plain unhappiness with unpopular policies. ponder over who can deliver results. a strong and credible leadership can groom worthy leaders for our future. not unhappy, angsty people who fail to credit where credit is due.

2011-04-28T23:10:00.001+08:00

mmm~

2011-04-27T17:12:00.002+08:00

slightly repulsed by remarks such as 'i'm stressed, dunno why','i think i did too much'. "wait some more you will know', when it is clearly NOT justified. neither does repeating questions (of no value nor relavance to said idiot) that i have very kindly feigned patience and answered is going make much of a conversation. attempts at that fail as 答非所问 best expresses said idiot's replies.

the sun made me do this.

2011-04-23T01:25:00.003+08:00

scene of the day: cousin fails at prawning.

mum: did you pray to God?
cousin: yes..
mum: which God? Jesus?
cousin: yes..
mum: He is very busy on Good Friday sacrificing Himself. You need to change God.

blasphemy!

MY FRIDAY IS GOOD.
better than best is simply to be good enough.

2011-04-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

It's a new dawn
It's a new day
It's a new life
For me
And I'm feeling good

2011-04-08T02:18:00.003+08:00

just when i found out my new career goal in life (before 30), i found out someone beat me to it already:( its ridiculous although its more of a fantasy of less than a week more than a decent proposal i had been working on, i feel :(

but its ok, i no longer contribute to the _% unemployment rate of singapore! nice title, ideal job scope BUT a less than ideal location. give and take its still pretty kickass.. BECAUSE I AM NO LONGER A FT BUMMER. SAY HALLELUJAH.

on the downside, i figured 24hrs will no longer be sufficient. going are the days when i simply slot myself into busy pples' free timeslots and bugger my mum to shop with me. fridays will inevitably be a day of joining masses for God worshipping. and weekends will rise increasingly in value and seem devastatingly fleeting in contrast to the weekdays. omg.

im excited! for nw.

2011-04-04T00:40:00.002+08:00

would be nice to a career out of meeting people for food.
....ooo..kk. just saw how this can be badly misconstrued.

facebook profile show and tell time @ granny's. my secretive cousins (as we all were at that precarious age) opened up. rabid clicking syndrome was developed upon embarrassing/scandalous pictures that divulged more than what they were willing to reveal. mine, on the other hand received less than lukewarm response. quoting my aunt - aiya old already, whats there to see. 都不 cute 了

why like that.

2011-04-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

Singapore provides a whole host of good reasons for these foreign firms and foreigners to want to work here. Safety and security, low taxes, efficient and pro business environment, good schools for their kids, enjoyable expat lifestyle (housing and recreation), clean air/water, easy-to-get PR-status, accessible Asian city with English everywhere etc. These factors will not change just because we ask for 'Singaporeans First'.

As a city, we are damn attractive to the world. And we will still be, even if we decide to button up a little. Show less cleavage, put on our panties... You get the pic. - blinkymummy

singapore's a slutbag. hahaha.

2011-03-31T00:12:00.004+08:00

spirits swung from low to high, and my appetite is so good i can eat a cow if i like cows at all. right now, another mint soymilk would make me alot happier than happy but also fatter than fat.

2011-03-29T23:57:00.005+08:00

youtubing my day to no waste. .

bumming around is going to make me ill.
one can only do so much of nothing.

2011-03-14T00:48:00.001+08:00

Lord, protect our planet, because we live here, and here we dwell with our daily tragedies.

May our daily reconstruction be the result of the very best that we carry within us.
Give us the courage, after our doubts,
to be able to reconstruct what was destroyed
to be able to recover what was lost
to be able to accept what was gone forever.
May you give us courage to look ahead, may we never look back nor allow our soul to be discouraged.

Lord, give us enthusiasm, because Enthusiasm reaffirms to us that everything is possible, as long as we are totally committed to what we are doing.

Lord, may the Earth continue to transform seeds into wheat, may we continue to transmute wheat into bread. Do not leave us in solitude.

Have pity on us, Lord. For we often think we are dressed when we are naked. Do not forget, in your mercy, our friends in Japan, who are now teaching us the meaning of Courage, Reconstruction, Solidarity and Enthusiasm.

Amen

-Paulo Coelho

2011-03-14T00:09:00.003+08:00

If you don’t know where you are going, any road will take you there. - Alice in Wonderland

watched tangled with with my cousins crowded in a tiny room. they used to be so small just a while back. granny's been feeding us good.

a worthy mention of the week is a failed attempt at camera buying. not the lack of options, lack of funds (regardless of how heart wrenching a reduction would cause), lack of an object of desire, nor lack of supplies. it stemmed from the lack of a REASON to buy it. after months of being in a comatose state, it decided to (of all days and of all times) regained perfect working condition (save for the faulty zoom function i do not care for) upon the magical healing touch of my dad right before heading to the IT fair. two days of anticipation and excitement *poofed* because i am not prone to unnecessary expenditure:( one of those situations where once again my emotions undecided. i literally cannot decide to be happy or not.

:( japan is in a terrible state. pretty sure they will bounce right back better then ever cos thats the japanese spirit. they are so strange because they never seem to fluster, panic, or over-react. they always maintain the japanese grace and charm i am deeply enamoured of. and in spite of all chaos, orderliness can still be maintained. unbreakable amazing people.

2011-03-11T00:22:00.002+08:00

do you sometimes wish eyeballs, throats and the soles of our feet were scratchable? itchy eyeball o.0

2011-03-11T00:05:00.004+08:00

what happened to good old educational videos for children? hahaha very good for bio lessons too. halfway into the video the narrator said, "simply, JUST USE COMMON SENSE" funny! its like she got frustrated with explaining so much and tells you to just use your common sense.

2011-03-10T23:14:00.003+08:00

didnt exactly realise that yesterday would have marked my official graduation. the pictures are making me semi regret my decision. (TOTALLY SAW THIS COMING) hahaha. felt a warm fuzzy happy feelin looking at the pictures nontheless. everyone is so cute. everything looks so familiar yet foreign its like i left a slice of my life back there.

had fun fixing my teeth @tinezzz. true story.
because i felt no fear, i believed i was invincible for the day and felt brave enough to evaluate options to fix my... disability. hahaha. im a wishy washy scardey cat crying baby. makes me one of the most challenging of dental patients because one wld require alot of patience to reaasure and explain EVERY. SINGLE. THING. to me. amen for tinezzz. i love you, please always be my dentist and guardian of my teeth.

i realise. i dont like shopping at all when i have nothing to buy. its just aimless wandering around, looking at things i have no intention of getting. and thus ended up buying food and eating.. and eating.. i now really want to eat yami yoghurt and banana chocolate fishshaped hot sandwich and banana chocolate waffle sandwich. i also realise i really like banana chocolate. banana chocolate banana chocolate banana chocolate.

给我一点吃的吧.
totally digressed. banana chocolate~.

2011-03-05T01:07:00.004+08:00

early days late nights; my cells are dying my the bagazillions.
my days just keep getting longer by compromising on sleeptime. also on an alcohol binge, for 3 days straight ive been getting home giddywoozywheezy. no more, for real. hahaha for real?

something died in my mouth:0 apparently it has been for a while now, but its ok because it still can stay in my mouth 'embalmed'. its also ok because alive or dead, it still does its job.

a masked stranger peering into my mouth just wont work. so having ur teeth checked by a friend is so comforting that my fear meter dropped a couple of notches. explanations for every 'hmm', 'eh..?' and 'ohh' is also very significant in allevating any fears. the wildest thoughts surface at each unexplained comments. so THANKYOU DRtobe LIM. for u, they will be flossed!